|If it was cake, I’d be able to leave it go. I don’t need the extra stuff. But this is basic for me. It is who I am. It’s just the basic sustenance.Yes, God is my source of nourishment. It is in Him that I draw my strength.
Does God have different rules for different people? Heterosexual Christians are allowed to have physically intimate relationships, that’s okay. Homosexual Christians aren’t allowed to have physically intimate relationships, that’s not okay. Why would God want different things for His people?
No, sex isn’t everything. It’s not sustenance. It sure seems to play some part in the human existence though, straight or gay.
Apart from some apparently confused letter, I was raised to understand that Lutheran theology taught that intimate relationships with your spouse for pleasure is not sinful. Why would God give that primal urge to want physical intimacy to everyone, but then forbid some to act upon it? Or do we lump it in with the talents God provides? or spiritual gifts? Everyone gets different ones and you just live with it because God obviously has a plan for you and your life. It’s just that His plan for your life just doesn’t have the added bonuses of acceptance of your sexual attraction, a Church that accepts your “disease”, nor does it allow you to fulfill your primal sexual urges (like He does for the heterosexual Christians, they can have as much sex as they like), even in a committed Christian relationship. (yes, two homosexuals can be committed and Christian, both at the same time even!) Just live with it. Watch the heteros go about in their couples and “enjoy” their lives. But don’t you even think about it. That’s not God’s plan for you, that’s just for the others.
I look forward to seeing all who believe in the loving grace of Jesus in heaven. I bear great sadness for my friends and family who do not believe in that message. I also wonder about many other people… those who have not heard the message. Or those who have not been given the opportunity to ask more about it. I don’t have the answers.
There are many things about God that I simply do not understand… and never will. But there are some things that I know for sure! I do know for sure that sometimes people get stuff wrong. Like the pastor who I heard preach recently telling his congregation that they must be baptised to get into heaven. I recall a thief on a cross who went to heaven purely on the basis that he believed. (unless they edited the theif’s baptism scene out of the Gospels for the sake of fluency of reading… ) I don’t get it right always either… and I apologise to my colleagues and students that I teach regularly for it. But there are some things I do know for sure!
I don’t want cake. I want life giving bread and water. Thankfully I get that through my relationship with Christ. But why does he want me to spend my whole life fighting my primal urges and feeling guilty about wanting it because my Church tells me that the act is just as bad as murder (sin is sin), when the man next me in the pew at Church can act on his with a clear conscience?
[not a perfect example of my point, but still… why is it okay for some and not for others?]
I am not angry with you for having your point of view. I respect differences of opinion. I just need to get what I think out there too. I’m the one living this excluded experience.
Here I stand!
Jesus loves me, this I know!